Friday, September 21, 2012

Reborn

I am blessed. I thought I was going to get fucked again. 

They gave me strength. They stayed by me. They helped me. 

It was 2 days before raya. Everything fell apart. Jobless. Came orang lama to the rescue. Alhamdulillah...

Can't believe that he was there for me when I needed help and someone the most. He saved my raya celebration. The raya that I was looking forward to celebrate since papa passed away. I actually, truly had a great raya despite that shits was happening. I got to celebrate it. Though it wasn't as I planned, but it was better. Alhamdulillah.

2 weeks later, it hits me. Reality hit me. I fell. It was harder. Space cadet was there. The longest hug I had and I didn't want to let go. It was painful to let go. At least, now, I knew. He knew. We knew.  And here we are. 

Through the shits that was and still happening now, I'm really thankful and grateful for having family and friends that prayed and helped me through this, my angels; papa and Aldo for being there in spirit for me and definitely to Allah SWT for having Mercy on me. Alhamdulillah. I now am happily working at an event company. Back to where I belong. It took me 2 weeks. I got up within 2 weeks.

Though, right now, those shits are still around, but I believe, I'm stronger than before. 

Thank you dearest angels.
Thanks to Allah SWT.
Alhamdulillah...

I'm reborn.


Thursday, September 20, 2012

The Private Affair, part deux

We talked. 

It was so hard for me. For him too. It made things harder to let go. It hurts. 

It got stronger and deeper. Excruciating painful yet beautiful feeling.

Fucked, no?