Bite Me

It's been awhile. Been busy with work. It's great, not that I'm complaining. I've never been happier compared now. I love my life right now. Doing more or less the things I've been wanting to do -- events; with a bonus -- music. Passion.

I'm just lucky. Thankful to God. Thankful to my parents who never stop praying for me. I had a conversation with someone who I barely know. Told me that heard rumors bout me; snobbish, arrogant. What if I am? I am living a whole new life.

I do remember where I come from. Oh, well. Some people..

As far as I'm concern, I never leave anyone behind. Correct me if I'm wrong. All I want is to live my dream, and it'll come. 5 years from now, RSG Events, insyaAllah, will be one of them. That's a promise to thyself.

" Do you know how to rest and chill ? "

Passing Dreams with Tears...

I kept on wondering, what's life gonna be in few years time. I'm 25 this year. I have nothing except my pride. Most of my schoolmates and cousins are married. Both, my elder siblings have each 3 kids of their own. One is almost happy with his life and the other left to UMRAH to find peace after few years of rocking marriage. Me? 

Still with the same person. Dare not to change a single bit. Last 2 days went to Jalan Tandang with him for a drink. We talked almost about everything. I enjoyed my times with him. It's been 2 years. Love for him hasn't fade. I guess for now...

Funny when people never understood our situation. Every girl dreams a beautiful wedding or life with their loved one. But me, I don't. I'm too afraid. I know he doesn't have the same feelings towards me. But I still stay. Knowing he loves someone else, I still stay. Stupid? No. Comfort zone? No. If I could find the other answers for it why, I'd stated it out here. For now, I know it's LOVE.

When I reached home, I'd still feel lonely. Felt like I've lost him. Again. 

Nothing's change.

Brave New World

Fresh starts. Thanks to the calendar, they happen every year. Just set your watch to January.Our reward for surviving the holiday season is a new year. Bringing on the great tradition of New Year resolutions.Put your past behind you and start over. It’s hard to resist the chance of a new beginning. A chance to put the problems of last year to bed.Who gets to determine when the old ends and the new begins? It’s not a day on a calendar. Not a birthday, not a new year. It’s an event, big or small, something that changes us. Ideally it gives us hope.A new way of living and looking at the world. Letting go of old habits, old memories. What’s important is that we never stop believing that we can have a new beginning. But it’s also important to remember that amid all the crap, there are a few things really worth holding on to.

It's been awhile. I've been busy. Not dead. Still breathing.

Tasks:-

• Managing Bunkface - shows back to back (been a crazy month for me)
• Running events at Lepaq (finally quits and 26th Dec 08 was my last gig)
• Running my own company (finally registered and doing a few projects with my partner, Meor Ezarim)
• Spending time with my bestfriend, Atie and my dearest sister, Nelly (both going through hard time)
• Saving my "companionship" (in a way, since both him and I are busy, we hardly spend time together and mostly it's about work and I totally forgot how does it feels)

By today, midnight, it's 2009. I don't really have a long list for resolutions, but I do know what I want.

Goals:-

• Making sure my babies, hence, Bunkface, grow to the next level - Sunburst KL, Melbourne, Singapore, Indonesia.
• My company ; READY STEADY GO EVENTS, do lots of events 
• Malaysian Festival in Melbourne - 3rd October 2009 (gift for my 25th birthday)
• Still breathing
• Happy with him

It's gonna be a brave new world out there for me. InsyaAllah. I've been waiting for these moments. InsyaAllah, I'm gonna make it through.. 

Happy New Year folks! May all your dreams come true.. I do.

Welcome 2009, Goodbye 2008.

Zara Ismail

Time of your life

Another turning point;
A fork stuck in the road.

Time grabs you by the wrist;
Directs you where to go.

So make the best of this test
And don't ask why.

It's not a question
But a lesson learned in time.

It's something unpredictable
But in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.
-Green Day

I got this title when I was The Attic,Bangsar for one of my favorites singer-songwriters, Isaac Entry last performance (he's leaving for 3 months). I was there with one of my girl friends, Nisa T. Devlin (just the 2 of us girls!) celebrating me getting a new job. While Isaac was on a break for his second set, Green Day's song; Time of your life, played.

And so, I recalled what happened for the last one week. A week ago, I was jobless and almost broke (thanks mum and dad for helping me out!). Today, I was hired by a MNC company, Kelly Services as a staffing consultant. I realized when I was really down, only a few stand next to me. A stranger (it's because I wasn't close to her back then and she knows who she is) helped me out after I stated at my facebook profile that I'm jobless and if there any recommendations do let me know. She did. My beloved companion stood next to me, print me; my resume, brought me to the interviews, and supported me when I'm about to lose my mind, telling me that everything is going to be alright, and only 2 of my girl friends (whom I shall not name but they know who they are) was there too.

There you go, a time of your life. You were up and fall down and now, taking baby steps to build it up again. I pray that this one time, it'll last.