Remembrance

2010 has come to it's end. Another 3 days it's new year. A new year for me to go through it. 2010 has been very challenging for me. I was left on the eve of Valentine's Day, lived through 6 months with the support of my loved ones. With no job, I had to find a way to survive. Until one day in August, my beloved brother, Shamil Yusof rescued me from baking cookies for the entire year. He gave me a job that has always been my passion. I am now one of the Clockwork Events Sdn Bhd crew.

Handling my very own first award event, Nextgen Contentpreneur Awards 2010 was challenging but I've learned a lot from it. On September 6th, my beloved father passed away. That tore me into pieces that no one could ever imagine. Until now, I'm still hurting, trying to move on, and at the same time, my love, came back into my life. Even though we're not together, he has been there for me ever since. I would never regret what ever has happened before. This year has taught me a lot. Words could no describe.

I made new friends through Twitter. I'm thankful I met most of them during the Oct23rd TwtUp. I'm proud to be part of it. It was one of the biggest twtup in Malaysia. They all have given me strength and courage to go through situations, I imagined myself going through it all alone.

Goodbye 2010, may 2011 is a break through for my career, my future, my life. Amin.

"This song means the world to me right now. It gives me strength" - Zara Ismail

Twenty-Something

Ok, I haven't blog for awhile so please excuse me.

I can't believe in 2 days time I'm gonna be 25 years old. That's quarter century old. Damn! I feel old. I have been sitting down and think a lot lately. Why I've changed so much. Well, I figured it out after talking to a mutual friend of mine. I'm not the same girl like I used to. I hardly go out and I CHOOSE who I wanna go out with. I feel insecure. Funneh.

I have to admit, partly it's because of work. Then the responsibilities are piling up. Damn! Can't I just be 21 again?

These are the worries I've been thinking that made me depressed:-
1. Work - salary issues
2. Household - money issues
3. Parents - money and time issues
4. Relationship - time and past issues
5. Friendship - time, money and past issues.

I think that's about it.

Haha, Having quarter life crisis is very very not interesting. Oh well.

But this is what I'll achieve soon:-
1. Stable job
2. Driving license
3. Car

All insyaAllah by end of the year... :)

Happy Birthday to me in advanced!

Bite Me

It's been awhile. Been busy with work. It's great, not that I'm complaining. I've never been happier compared now. I love my life right now. Doing more or less the things I've been wanting to do -- events; with a bonus -- music. Passion.

I'm just lucky. Thankful to God. Thankful to my parents who never stop praying for me. I had a conversation with someone who I barely know. Told me that heard rumors bout me; snobbish, arrogant. What if I am? I am living a whole new life.

I do remember where I come from. Oh, well. Some people..

As far as I'm concern, I never leave anyone behind. Correct me if I'm wrong. All I want is to live my dream, and it'll come. 5 years from now, RSG Events, insyaAllah, will be one of them. That's a promise to thyself.

" Do you know how to rest and chill ? "

Brave New World

Fresh starts. Thanks to the calendar, they happen every year. Just set your watch to January.Our reward for surviving the holiday season is a new year. Bringing on the great tradition of New Year resolutions.Put your past behind you and start over. It’s hard to resist the chance of a new beginning. A chance to put the problems of last year to bed.Who gets to determine when the old ends and the new begins? It’s not a day on a calendar. Not a birthday, not a new year. It’s an event, big or small, something that changes us. Ideally it gives us hope.A new way of living and looking at the world. Letting go of old habits, old memories. What’s important is that we never stop believing that we can have a new beginning. But it’s also important to remember that amid all the crap, there are a few things really worth holding on to.

It's been awhile. I've been busy. Not dead. Still breathing.

Tasks:-

• Managing Bunkface - shows back to back (been a crazy month for me)
• Running events at Lepaq (finally quits and 26th Dec 08 was my last gig)
• Running my own company (finally registered and doing a few projects with my partner, Meor Ezarim)
• Spending time with my bestfriend, Atie and my dearest sister, Nelly (both going through hard time)
• Saving my "companionship" (in a way, since both him and I are busy, we hardly spend time together and mostly it's about work and I totally forgot how does it feels)

By today, midnight, it's 2009. I don't really have a long list for resolutions, but I do know what I want.

Goals:-

• Making sure my babies, hence, Bunkface, grow to the next level - Sunburst KL, Melbourne, Singapore, Indonesia.
• My company ; READY STEADY GO EVENTS, do lots of events 
• Malaysian Festival in Melbourne - 3rd October 2009 (gift for my 25th birthday)
• Still breathing
• Happy with him

It's gonna be a brave new world out there for me. InsyaAllah. I've been waiting for these moments. InsyaAllah, I'm gonna make it through.. 

Happy New Year folks! May all your dreams come true.. I do.

Welcome 2009, Goodbye 2008.

Zara Ismail

Time of your life

Another turning point;
A fork stuck in the road.

Time grabs you by the wrist;
Directs you where to go.

So make the best of this test
And don't ask why.

It's not a question
But a lesson learned in time.

It's something unpredictable
But in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.
-Green Day

I got this title when I was The Attic,Bangsar for one of my favorites singer-songwriters, Isaac Entry last performance (he's leaving for 3 months). I was there with one of my girl friends, Nisa T. Devlin (just the 2 of us girls!) celebrating me getting a new job. While Isaac was on a break for his second set, Green Day's song; Time of your life, played.

And so, I recalled what happened for the last one week. A week ago, I was jobless and almost broke (thanks mum and dad for helping me out!). Today, I was hired by a MNC company, Kelly Services as a staffing consultant. I realized when I was really down, only a few stand next to me. A stranger (it's because I wasn't close to her back then and she knows who she is) helped me out after I stated at my facebook profile that I'm jobless and if there any recommendations do let me know. She did. My beloved companion stood next to me, print me; my resume, brought me to the interviews, and supported me when I'm about to lose my mind, telling me that everything is going to be alright, and only 2 of my girl friends (whom I shall not name but they know who they are) was there too.

There you go, a time of your life. You were up and fall down and now, taking baby steps to build it up again. I pray that this one time, it'll last.

Brains fried up.

1. sleeping late. [one and a half week of off]
2. smoking a lot. [stress for no reasons on few things€ and i am a heavy smoker]
3. been eating like nobody's business. [hell yeah I've gained weight.omg!]
4. drinking.
5. partying. [some say I'm a party animal.but I know I'm not.]

And the results;-
a. being a lazy bum to clean the house.
b. always jumbling the words.
c. laugh until I drool.
d. waking up late.
e. cranky most of the time.
f. getting period/menstrual twice this month.
g. act like somewhat retarded or to put in a nice way,distorted.
h. forget to return calls and replying emails and smses. [Important calls!]
i. caught slight fever and flu.at times sore throat.[that's for irregular sleeping,smoking,partying and drinking a lot.]
j. forget about almost everything.[what i've said or done]
k. totally forgot about my appointments with anyone. I FORGOT ABOUT MY INTERVIEW TODAY AT MARCUS EVANS!!! [thank god i managed to reschedule and attend to it -- please pray i'll get the job.]

i need an organizer.
i need to rest.
i need to live my life normally again.

birthday wish list

ouh my bday is so near..yeay~ im gonna be an old fart! hahaha~ anyway..these are my wish list :-


1. dinner at rahsia
2. cash RM 450. [i dun have to pay my rent]
3. tong gas [ada stove tapi tong gas takde]
4. mattress. [tilamku amat nipis]
5. new frame for my glasses.
6. shoe cabinet
7. mini bar
8. Victoria secret body splash
9. shoes shoes shoes [and a pair of sneakers too]
10. dvd rack
11. dinner at starhill
12. dinner at groove junction
13. HIM limited edition dvd set
14. ikea wardrobe
15. digital camera
16. web cam
17. laptop cooler
18. external hard disk
19. brand new s500i [sony ericsson] or nokia 7373
20. perfume from Chanel [allure] / Ralph Laurence [romance]
21. pay raise

well so far that's my wish..more to come. *hint hint hint*

kisses,
Zara D.