Stolen

He came in my life, unannounced.
When he kiss, he sets avalanches in my heart.
I never could have seen this coming.
The most amazing things.
They arrive within a moment.
When he's next to me, I'm alive all of sudden.
This is beautiful, unmistakable, unforgettable.
This is beautiful.

Because of you.. I laugh a little harder, cry a little less and smile a little more...

I Get Around

t's easy to think that the world is exactly as it appears: refined, elegant, imposing. But sometimes all it takes is a little key to open the door to the wild side. I love my weekends. I love it when I go out with my babies. I get to see them and I'm drowned in laughters and happiness. All of them are so eccentric. Their characteristics mirrors me. They are all different among each other, but the same characteristics that they have are patience, helpful, understanding and very good listener. They define me. They bring me down to earth and yes, they are my ecstasy. My new drugs. I'm thankful to the Lord above, for such a beautiful gift. Our friendship. Yes, we partied a lot. So? We work our ass off day and night and we earned it. Sometimes we need to step outside, clear our head and remind ourselves of who we are. And where we want to be. And sometimes we have to venture outside our world in order to find ourselves.

 

  As for me, I'm happy right where I am... I only want to be with you babies. 

XOXO

Zara Ismail

Fall from the Star

This is a story about someone I truly love. Someone who has been in my life for the past 26 years. I love her so much that I wish I could give the world, the universe, everything to her. Just for her happiness. I may not show much affection towards her before this. She has always been there for me. She's my happy pill. She's an angel that has fallen from the star.

For the past 9 years, she has gone through something that no woman should have. I'm not going to say here outloud what had happened to her. Whenever I see her down, my heart cries out for her, yet, I have to stay strong. For her. For the kids. She and the kids are the love of my life. I can't really go on a day without talking to her. I know she's hurting inside. I've always and will pray that happiness will come for her.

What ever that makes her happy, I'll accept it. No matter who made her. No matter what made her.

Nana,

If I could change everything for you, I would. If I could meet up with God and ask him personally what did you do to deserve all these? I would. But I can't. All I can is to be next to you no matter what happen. All I can is to pray for your happiness. Because you're one and only sister that I have. Dunia, akhirat. I love you Ainur Nelisa Ismail. You're angel of my life, that fall from the star. I love you..

Love always,
Zara Ismail

Sometimes I Wonder

Today, is one of those days that I'm in a loving mode.

I miss that particular someone. He knew I exist but he never knew how I felt.

My head is singing Car Crash Heart's single "Sometimes I Wonder".. It's good song.

and so, I wonder... ;)

Moments of happiness

And so I'm happy.

Happy to have you.
Happy to like you.
Happy to think about you.

Happy happy happy.

The New Me

It's been a month, and a week. I've never thought I could live my life without him by my side. I'm REALLY officially single. I'm actually moving on with my life. After small talk with a good friend of mine, I then remembered "he" existed in my life.

I've totally forgotten about it. I never say I'd want to forget him, as I've never regretted being with him. My prayers came true. HE made it come true.

I'm happier now. I have my bestfriends, my close friends and definitely, my family.