Just another night

i cried myself to sleep..
i don't know why my tears won't stop..
it's painful inside but i don't know what's bothering me..
all i know i feel sad, heartbroken.
It's just another night..

Rewind

Picking up the pieces
Of the wreck you went and left
And I'm dealing with dilemmas
In my not-so-stressful life
And I'm drinking stronger spirits.

I made my home here on the floor
And I'm losing all ambitions
I'm a ghost.

And I'm going all out
And I'm thinking you're just as bad
No sleeping at night
But I'm going from bar to bar..

Make everything so simple in a crazy world,
And I'm trying to find the words to say,
You make everything alright just by being around,
You make me wanna sing,
You're my light in the dark,
Guiding me home and your faith in me,
--is all i need.

I need a little help,
I can't seem to breath easy,
When you're not around...

Why can't we just rewind?

Please Let Me Get What I Want

He is such an inspiration for the ways that I will never ever choose to be.
He did this, took all I had, and left me this way...
still I pray never stray;
never taste of the fruit I never thought to question why.
Difficult not to feel a little bit disappointed and passed over.
It's not like I killed someone.
It's not like I drove a spiteful spear into his side.
Pray for one who left, I broke down and paralyzed;
-- and he watched the change in me.
He did it all for me.

Awake

At 12.53am,
Her soul was taken.
She didn't know where she was.
She's walking.
She saw all the familiar faces;
Listening to their conversations,
Tried talking to them;
-- they couldn't hear her.

She witnessed everything that happened.
The situation was out of control,
She tried to help;
-- none can she reach.

A few hours later,
She is awake.

Silent Tragedy

Wind caressing her skin
--freezing.
Sky is dark
--raining.
Listening to the raindrops,
Tears streaming down.
None she can talk to.
Her chest is about to explode.
Staring into the empty spaces..

Inhaling her last puff from the last cigarette all alone,
She flies
--her own world.

The scar remains there,
She lay herself to bed.
She closes her eyes
--her soul was taken away.

Death of Zara D.

She was walking all alone.
She know something or someone is following her.
She turned her back;
-- there he was.
She ran.
Trying to find a place to hide.
Trying to find a way to escape.
Everywhere was grilled.

He saw her.
He caught her.
She shouted as loud as she can...
She took a good look at him...
and he stabbed her.

"Nothing is as real as a dream. The world can change around you, but your dream will not. Nothing happens unless first a dream but in the night of death, hope sees a star, and listening love can hear the rustle of a wing..."

Emotions

I don't know how to describe what I feel right now.
I feel it's empty but I know it's not.
I know it's not sadness.
I'm very sure it's not anger.
Not even love.
Could it be happiness?
No.
Until now I could not describe it.
-- It's all emotions.

Death

It's been coming to me for 3 straight days.
I saw her.
I visited her.
Such a beautiful place. Guess she's in heaven.

I was approached by a tall man.

"Who are you?"
"I'm death."
"What do you want?"

He just smiled.
He walked away.

I looked back at her;
-- fading away from my sight.

Sweetest Escape...

And so I've gone away and disappeared for almost a week now..
For the first time in my entire life, I traveled all alone without thinking.
My heart's been broken..
Been away to amend it.
Get rid all those "thoughts".
Made few friends..and I love it here.
I fell in love with the island.
It's the greatest memory for me so far and I shall do it again...
I've never felt so peace after quite some time..
I found my soul mate..
I found my bliss..
It's my sweetest escape.. =)

xoxo,
Zara D.

*forever in my memory*

Seconds you left..

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kau dan aku bahagia

Saat kau pergi..

Hello from here.

It's been 2 days i left.
It's been 2 days i've been thinking.
It's been 2 days i'm missing that particular someone.

Though i made it here..
My heart is broken and left it at home..
--with that particular someone.

All i can say,
Hello from here...

I miss you...

Postcards

i'm leaving today..
i'll send you a postcard everyday..

Memories of You

Memories of you--
That i just don't have right now
I'll make them up;
One cup of wanting you...
Two cups of hoping somehow...
These things come true~
While I'm staring at pictures of you...
Yearning...
Longing...
For now your picture will do...
Dialing you up in my sleep when the nights wearing thin;
Won't make it right.
My reasons to want to--
And 100 reasons to lie
When i don't want to...

Making up memories of you...

how many times my heart is gonna get broken?

funny i spoke to him about my dating life after last saturday.
i dont know why i told him about it.
make me look stupid.

apalah nasib aku...

i know he's busy with his work.
at least he doesnt have that feelings anymore.
i'm sad.
very very sad.
every time.
got cheated over and over again.

Ya Allah..ambil lah perasaan ini..
buang segala kesedihan ini..
take this pain away and make me loveless like You did previously..

cant take this pain.
i knew something is wrong with this guy.
i got to know about it today.
wtf?

i cant wait to get away from all these shits.
these nonsense.
leaving soon.
wednesday will be the day.
the day i found my bliss...

He was the greatest and he is now.
What went wrong i still have no clue..
did he ever got over me?
that i dont have the answer...

How many times will i let my heart get broken...?