Twenty-Something

Ok, I haven't blog for awhile so please excuse me.

I can't believe in 2 days time I'm gonna be 25 years old. That's quarter century old. Damn! I feel old. I have been sitting down and think a lot lately. Why I've changed so much. Well, I figured it out after talking to a mutual friend of mine. I'm not the same girl like I used to. I hardly go out and I CHOOSE who I wanna go out with. I feel insecure. Funneh.

I have to admit, partly it's because of work. Then the responsibilities are piling up. Damn! Can't I just be 21 again?

These are the worries I've been thinking that made me depressed:-
1. Work - salary issues
2. Household - money issues
3. Parents - money and time issues
4. Relationship - time and past issues
5. Friendship - time, money and past issues.

I think that's about it.

Haha, Having quarter life crisis is very very not interesting. Oh well.

But this is what I'll achieve soon:-
1. Stable job
2. Driving license
3. Car

All insyaAllah by end of the year... :)

Happy Birthday to me in advanced!

25th Birthday Wishlist

I'm turning to quarter century old in 3 months and 2 1/2 weeks. I've accomplished a few I want to do and now, I want these 25 things as my 25th birthday gift.

1. IKEA Cupboard (worth RM 139)
2. Mattress (worth RM 200 and not from IKEA)
3. 25 pairs of shoes (celebrating each year of my life)
4. Shoe racks for those 25 pairs of shoes
5. DVD player (I need a new one. So, if it has no brand, it doesn't matter BUT everyone do know that cheap thing no good, good thing no cheap)
6. Watch (Not for the wall. Wrist watch? Yes. I need one)
7. Purse (Been using it since 2005)
8. Spa treatment (I need to relax)
9. Dozen of light bulbs for my bed lamp (You need to see me and request the sample)
10. Washer machine (The old one is broken)
11. Laptop battery (Since no one can get me a Macbook 13", so I decided to use the 3 years old lappy of mine and the model is - ACER Aspire 5500Z)
12. External Hard drive (been living on thumb drives and email to store, so pathetic isn't it?)
13. Coat rack (not to hang coats but handbags because I have loads of them and no where to store it)
14. Maid that cleans the house once or twice a week
    
15. Dressing table (from IKEA as well)
16. Gym instructor or at least someone to motivate me to work out
17. A pair of jeans (seriously, I just want Levi's 501 or just from BLOOK)
18. HIM old cds since I lost 2 of it (not the latest album, just the 1st and 2nd album)
19. Internet camera (is that what you call it?)
20. Original anti-virus because I don't have any (the 3 years would do enough for me)
21. Printer (simple black and white would be enough as well)
22. Speaker or sound system for my lappy (urm, since Altec Lansing is expensive, I'll go for Sonic Gear)
23. Hangers for my clothes (can get them from Tesco, Giant, Carrefour, KK Mart, etc)
24. Beautiful Life dvds (the very first japanese series that was on telly. Takuya Kimura was the main cast. Been looking for that)
25. Last but not least, a pair of new glasses. I've been using this for 2 years, without changing the lenses.
    

Ok, that's it for now. I've decided. It will change year by year. But this is it. Just these things.

Serendipity

I'm a mother of 3.
I'm blessed.

I love them like my own kids. I've never thought I'd be as happy as I am right now. I'm proud of them. I'm doing my best to give what they want. But, has anyone question me what I want?

I think my boys can go far.. If only they can see what I'm doing for them. Whenever they're on the stage, I feel like crying. I fell in love with them. No matter how tired or sad I am, whenever I see them fooling around or even making fun of me, it warms my heart. Now, I know how does my mom feels.

All I pray is to be together with them for a long time. I love my kids, they are my new family.

What If You

What if you wish me away,
would you spoke those words today?
What if you said those words I've longed to hear,
would I'll be there to care?

I've always felt like I belong.
I've always felt you holding me;
Kissing me.

What if you could treat me better,
would you write me a letter?
What if you...
and I'll be forever with you.