That Woman

One woman loves you..
That woman loves you wholeheartedly
She follows you around like a shadow everyday
That woman is laughing and crying...


Just how much more do I have to gaze at you alone?
This love that came like the wind, 
This love like a beggar.
If I continue this way, will you love me?
Just come a little nearer..a little more..

If I take one step closer to you, then you take two steps back.
I who love you am next to you now.
That woman is crying.


That woman now is very careful
Therefore, to learning a method of smile
Even can not talk with best friend … too much
So the woman’s heart is always crying
So that woman…is loving you…
Such a fool. 


Because it is such a fool
Can you hug me?
I also want to be loved, my dear
Day by day in my heart, only in my heart…
Just like this calling you

That woman, is still in your side
That woman… is me, do you know ?
Or You know it but still act like this ?
You really do not know,because you´re a big fool …

Music of My Heart..

You'll never know
What you've done for me
What your faith in me
Has done for my soul...

You'll never know
The gift you've given me..
I'll carry it with me

Through the days ahead
I think of days before
You made me hope for something better (yes you did)
And made me reach for something more

You were the one
Always on my side
Always standing by
Seeing me through

You were the song that always made me sing
I'm singing this for you

Everywhere I go
I think of where I've been
And of the one who knew me better
Than anyone ever will again

You taught me to run
You taught me to fly
Helped me to free the me inside
Help me hear the music of my heart
You've opened my eyes
You've opened the door
To something I've never known before
And your love...
Is the music of my heart.. 

You're the music of my heart sayang.. 

I'm the luckiest girl to have you as my bestfriend..

Thank you for everything..

love always,

Zara Ismail

Daniel - Bat For Lashes

Daniel, when I first saw you
I knew that you had a flame in your heart
And under under wild blue skies
Marble movie skies
I found a home in your eyes
We'll never be apart

And when the fires came
The smell of cinders and rain
Perfumed almost everything
We laughed and laughed and laughed
And in the golden blue car
You took me to the darkest place you knew
And set fire to my heart

When I run in the dark
Daniel
To a place that's vast
Under a sheet of rain in my heart
Daniel
I dream of home

But in a goodbye bed
With my arms around your neck
Into our mouths the tears crept
Just kids in the eye of the storm
And as my head spun round
My dreams pulled me from the ground
Forever to search for the flame
For home again
For home again

When I run in the dark
Daniel
To a place that's vast
Under a sheet of rain in my heart
Daniel
I dream of home

When I run in the dark
Daniel
To a place that's vast
Under a sheet of rain in my heart
Daniel
I dream of home

This song is for you Danial Radzmi Roslan.

Somewhere Inside

I dedicate this song to you. Read the lyrics, and this is how I feel.

Who am I, love?
What am I supposed to be?
One life alone,
Oh somehow it's made for me

What do I do?
What can I say?
It's nothing new,
The choice was made
But what if I lose my way?
And run right into you,
Deep inside we'll never be anything other than lonely,
Tell me what does it take?
To breathe it into you,
Weak inside we'll never be anything other than lonely
One bleeding scar,
Still feels how it used to feel,
It's all so wrong,
No easy way to believe
What do I do?
What can I say?
It's nothing new,
The choice was made
But what if I lose my way?
And run right into you,
Deep inside we'll never be anything other than lonely,
Tell me what does it take?
To breathe it into you,
Weak inside we'll never be anything other than lonely
I wanna ride,
I wanna hide,
What I've become,
Now you're no longer mine,
I wanna feel,
Something that's real,
Somewhere inside
But what if I lose my way?
And run right into you,
Deep inside we'll never be anything other than lonely,
Tell me what does it take?
To breathe it into you,
Weak inside we'll never be anything other than lonely
I wanna ride,
I wanna hide,
What I've become,
Now you're no longer mine,
I wanna feel,
Something that's real,
Somewhere inside.

Zara Ismail

You Lost Me

I am done
Smoking gun
We've lost it all
The love is gone

She has won
Now its no fun
We've lost it all
The love is gone

And we had magic
And this is tragic
You couldn't keep your hands to yourself

I feel like our world's been infected,
And somehow you left me neglected

And we tried
How we cried
We lost ourselves
The love has died

Now I know you're sorry
And we were sweet
But you chose lust when you deceived me
And you'll regret it, but it's too late
How can I ever trust you again?

We've found our lives been changed
Babe, you lost me.

You Are For Me

This is such a beautiful song. Touched me inside...

Check the lyrics here

A Thousand Years

I'm ready to wait for you even a thousand years more.
But would it be true that I could live this long?
Let me go around from north to south.
I will not stop hoping. I'm ready, faithful.

I tried to follow you a thousand miles more.
But would it be true that my feet could walk this far?
Let the birds fly in their own way. Even if the ocean starts to shiver.
I'm still faithful.

Do you still long for this love?
Do you ever want this to last?

I'm ready to wait for you even a thousand years more.
But could it be true that I would live this long? Let me go around from north to south. I will not stop hoping. I'm ready, faithful.

Please don't lose your hope...Be ready...Be faithful...

Penguasa Hati

Somehow, it's been 4 months, 6 days, 1 hour you've been away. Do you ever wonder about me? Do you even cry to sleep at night thinking of me? Do you ever reminisce about us? It's been this long and I'm still missing you. I can still taste your lips, your sweet kisses. It's hard enough just passing the time. I can't seem to get you off my mind. Where is the good in goodbye? I always wonder, do you ever ask about me. I should be over you but I'm still missing you. I'd like to say more, but these lyrics are enough to say it all.

 

Sebelum kau pergi jauh dariku
Dengarlah isi hatiku tentang dirimu
Yang slalu ku cinta
Dan yang slalu ku rindukan

Maafkanlah semua kesalahanku
Ku buat kau menangis pergi dan berlalu
Meninggalkan diriku
Dan takkan pernah kembali

Dan akhirnya kesendirian hatiku
Menyadarkan diriku bahwa engkaulah
Penguasa hatiku

Engkaulah cinta sejati dalam hidupku
Kaulah yang terakhir yang slalu kunanti
Sampai akhir nanti

Dan kaulah satu-satunya yang slalu kurindukan
Menghiasi ruangan hatiku
Sampai akhir nanti

Zara Ismail

Bila Cinta

Hari ini cukup empat bulan kau meninggalkan ku... Aku termenung seorang diri mengingati kisah kita yang lalu. Hati ini masih terluka. Air mataku membasahi pipi. Apakah salahku? Sampai kini aku tertanya tanya... Kau pergi meninggalkan aku tanpa sebarang kata. Aku masih memegang janjimu. Tatkali aku memejam mataku, aku masih melihat kau dan aku. Gelak tawamu, senyumanmu, masih segar di ingatan. Apakah kau sendiri tidak merasai apa yang aku rasa? Terluka, rindu? Walaubagaimanapun, kau masih di hati ini. Lagu ini ditujukan khas buatmu.


Bila cinta kini tak lagi bermakna
yang kurasa kini
hanya lah nestapa
ditinggalkan cinta masa lalu....


Dulu kau tawarkan manisnya janjimu
dan ku sambut itu dengan segenap hatiku
hingga engkau pergi tinggalkan ku...


Hilangnya cintamu
menusuk hatiku
hingga ku memilih cinta yang fana
perginya dirimu merobek jantungku
hingga ku terjatuh dalam harapan...


Ku sebut namamu disetiap doaku
dan ku kan setia kenangan tentangmu
yang ku dapat hanya lah bayangmu...

Zara Ismail

You Wreck Me

Me : How did we let this end this way when it could've been better?

Him : I don't know.

Me : For all the things we've been through, I'm angry, I'm upset, I'm disappointed and I'm frustrated. BUT, you don't have to apologize because I forgave you and I'm sorry for the things I've done and said to you..

Him : I won't let you dissappear from my life.

Me : .....

That was the last conversation we had. Well, partly. We hugged, and walked away. That was two and a half months ago. I'm still bitter. When I had to talk to him, I became this person that I wasn't. I became angry. I'm moving on, yet the wound hasn't heal. I hate myself right now. This is not me. I'm only happier when I see my babies (best & good friends) and my family. When I'm alone, I'm bitter.

I'm quieter compared before. I hesitated when the guys came closer. I don't see the world as it was. I was a lover and I'm not anymore.


I'm wrecked.
You wreck me.

Too long we’ve been denying
Now we’re both tired of trying
We hit a wall and we can’t get over it
Nothing to relive
It’s water under the bridge

~ "It Is What It Is" by Lifehouse

Sejati

Hari ini, aku cuba blog dalam bahasa.

Aku rasa kekosongan. Aku teringat akan diri orang lama. Apa khabarnya? Tiba-tiba nostalgia datang membawa sejuta kenangan. Air mata bergelinangan membasahi pipi. Sudah lupakah dia kepada diriku? Walaupun aku ada ramai teman yang menghiburkan diri ini, akan tetapi, tidak sama dengan dirinya.. Aku buntu. Pilu sungguh hati ini. Berkali-kali aku memesan diri ini cuba melupakannya, aku tewas dengan perasaan diriku sendiri. Namun semuanya kenangan... Hanya lagu "Sejati" dari Wings menemani hati yang luka ini.

Sejati
Itu yang kau ucapkan
Bila janji kugenggam
Bawah pohon kemboja
Yang sekecil kita

Menanti
Di mahligai mainan
Kita bina bersama
                                                      Dari dahan yang rapuh

Usia perangkap kita
Remaja kita tinggalkan
Namun aku masih
Menggenggam janji

Tinggal kenangan
Gagal segala impian
Tinggal bertanya
Erti sejati

Kenangan itu
Hanya mainan bagimu
Tinggal bertanya
Erti sejati
Yang telah engkau janjikan dulu

When You're Gone

I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cried
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie
Is made up on your side

I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do
Reminds me of you
And the clothes you left
They lie on the floor
And they smell just like you
I love the things that you do

And all I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I do I give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it ok

I miss you..

- Avril Lavigne

Close to the Flame

The kiss - sweetest
And touch - so warm
The smile - kindest
In this world - so cold and strong

The arms - safest
And words - so good
The faith - deepest
In this world - so cold and cruel

So close to the flame
Burning brightly
It won't fade away and leave us lonely 

- Ville Valo

Who For You

If I could paint a sad goodbye;
I’d paint your eyes a clear blue sky.
Pluck you grace from a pale faced moon
And slumber down this tattered room.

If I could find an amber train;
Lord I’d ride it to the bitter end.
Passing hope in the summer bloom;
Passing dreams and a fading tune.

If I should stray amid crimson rose…
Whither angels on wings of gold?
Who for flowers in the month of May?
Who for you on your winter’s day?
Who for flowers in the months of May?
Who for you?

I love this song..Soundtrack from Gubra. Pete sang it beautifully..My new lullaby.. :)

Maharani

Mereka kata ku gila
Lagilah aku suka
Otakku geliga
Fikiran luar biasa

Mereka kata ku samseng
Tapi ku tak ambil pusing
Pedulikan semua
Fikir apa yang penting

Semua tuduhan
Fitnah belaka
Ada yang suka
Juga ada yang benci
Biar peluru menembus kulitku
Suatu yang pasti kekal abadi

Jangan percaya kata mereka
- Maharani, Butterfingers.

This is for the people out there. Don't judge a book by its cover.

Zara Ismail.

Wherever I Go

Wherever I go, I take you with me,
‘Cause I don’t want to see you leave.
Whenever I go, you stay with me,
They won’t see you leave.
Are you here with me?
I want you here with me
Whenever I turn, you are gone from me.
And I won’t see you leave.
Wherever I go, your shadow follows me
I don’t want to see you leave.
Are you here with me?
I want you here with me.
You are here with me.
And I am here with you.
You are here with me.
And I am here with you

Terima Kasih Cinta

Tersadar di dalam sepiku
Setelah jauh melangkah
Cahaya kasihmu menuntunku
Kembali dalam dekap tanganmu

Terima kasih cinta untuk segalanya
Kau berikan lagi kesempatan itu
Tak akan terulang lagi
Semua kesalahanku yang pernah menyakitimu

Tanpamu tiada berarti
Tak mampu lagi berdiri
Cahaya kasihmu menuntunku
Kembali dalam dekap tanganmu

Terima kasih cinta untuk segalanya
Kau berikan lagi kesempatan itu
Tak akan terulang lagi
Semua kesalahanku yang pernah menyakitimu

Broken Heart

Dan bila kau menghilang
Musnah lah, musnah impian
tuk menggapai bintang
terangi hidup ku
Ku mahu kau tahu
engkaulah, destinasiku
dalam ingatanku - Situasi

Of Rainbow & Us

Give me a smile
When I'm down down down
Give me your touch
When I'm all alone

She brings back those days
Of rainbows and us

Share me your rainbow today
Share me your rainbow tonight
I'll be waiting I'll be waiting I'll be waiting
To smile with you

Lend me your smile
When you're down down down
Lend me your touch
When you're all alone

She brings back those days
Of rainbows and us

Share me your rainstorm today
Share me your rainstorm tonight
I'll be waiting I'll be waiting I'll be waiting
To cry with you

*It's so sweet of you to write this song, and to hear you sing, I'm touched. Thank you.*

Kehadapan bintang jatuh...

It hasn't been a really great week for me though I had lots of fun. It's just letting the time pass by. Today was one of those days that I really had it. I never walk away from someone and today I did it. I was so frustrated and pissed.

There I was, on that space. He wrote it beautifully. Tears of happiness and sadness flowed, streaming down my cheek. Funny how it is, but I never want it to end... Never.

The beauty of what we have lies in the uncertainty of what to come. The beauty of us can be found in undecipherable puzzles with vague questions and impossible answers. We are young, foolish and confused. There is no other time in life that can ever be both the best and worst as now. What we have is beautiful and sad, because at any moment, we can lose each other. And that is why it is beautiful, and sad. Because it is so fleeting, so fragile, so uncertain. But despite everything, here we are, looking at your most beautiful photograph, side by side, smiling. And that is all that matters. Today. Now. This moment is all that matters.

"And all the chances that we take,
For years and years,
We'll have this place,
They were always for you,
Always for you"