Who For You

If I could paint a sad goodbye;
I’d paint your eyes a clear blue sky.
Pluck you grace from a pale faced moon
And slumber down this tattered room.

If I could find an amber train;
Lord I’d ride it to the bitter end.
Passing hope in the summer bloom;
Passing dreams and a fading tune.

If I should stray amid crimson rose…
Whither angels on wings of gold?
Who for flowers in the month of May?
Who for you on your winter’s day?
Who for flowers in the months of May?
Who for you?

I love this song..Soundtrack from Gubra. Pete sang it beautifully..My new lullaby.. :)

Situasi

There's one day, a very good friend of mine buzz me up on ym;

nuril anwar: zara, ada band nak cari manager la. zara nak tak?
zara322_g: ye ke? band apa? zara ok je la la la la~
nuril anwar: ok ok nanti nuril kasi no
zara zara322_g: oh ok ok.. haha yang tade experience nie jadi band manager.. hahaha
nuril anwar: hahhaa try jeeeee

Later on, I got a call from this dude, Ijam, calling me while I just woke up explaining to me about
the band. I then sms him, 'Can you please sms me the name of the band again?'. He replied, ' www.myspace.com/bunkface '. My eyes stop blinking. 'Bunkface?', I mentioned it a couple of times and then I straight away called Shinzu, "Bunny! omg omg omg, I might be Bunkface manager!". "You're serious?!", that's all he asked. "Yes! I can't believe it, we went to Laundry a couple of weeks ago and watched them..", "Bagus la tu..".

There you go, after a meeting, went to watch them performed at MCPA hall on 2nd November 2008, I knew, good thing will come.

My very first trip with them was to X-gig at Ipoh, Perak. I was damn nervous. I cried calling my best friend that I wanted to see her before I left and it's only for 2 nights. I had a fight with my bunny, because I wanted to talk to him as well. I left without saying goodbye.

Where X-gig is held

the band is interviewed by Shaz @ X.fm

During my journey, I can't believe that I'm actually leaving town with strangers. Worried I might not get along very well. Truth is, I did. I had so much fun there. I made new friends. The Tyre burst during the 3 hours journey. It was at km288.3 and I won't ever ever forget that. I was even called " hot "mum" ". I shall not name, name. Haha. I had 16 "children" to be taken cared. I remember how cute they all were.. I had to hold an umbrella to make them go to bed. Wake them up early and make sure they get breakfast and go to "school" (sound check) early. Fun.

Ijam "fixing" the Tyre

I shall not forget this.

crazy frigging awesome crowd!

with my "children"

with the X.fm crews and few of my "children"
(Bunkface and friends/entourage)

Lata Kijang, Perak

On the way back, we stopped at Lata Kijang, Perak. Beautiful. I walked all the way up to get nice shots. Wished I had a DSLR. Wished I knew how to use it as well. Tee Hee Hee. It was one of the best trips I had after a long time. Last I remembered it was to Port Dickson with my bunny and friends and that was few months ago.

Now, I'm at home. Sick. Boo Hoo Hoo.

I miss my bunny.

I miss my bestie.

I want my mommy.

Of Rainbow & Us

Give me a smile
When I'm down down down
Give me your touch
When I'm all alone

She brings back those days
Of rainbows and us

Share me your rainbow today
Share me your rainbow tonight
I'll be waiting I'll be waiting I'll be waiting
To smile with you

Lend me your smile
When you're down down down
Lend me your touch
When you're all alone

She brings back those days
Of rainbows and us

Share me your rainstorm today
Share me your rainstorm tonight
I'll be waiting I'll be waiting I'll be waiting
To cry with you

*It's so sweet of you to write this song, and to hear you sing, I'm touched. Thank you.*

Kehadapan bintang jatuh...

It hasn't been a really great week for me though I had lots of fun. It's just letting the time pass by. Today was one of those days that I really had it. I never walk away from someone and today I did it. I was so frustrated and pissed.

There I was, on that space. He wrote it beautifully. Tears of happiness and sadness flowed, streaming down my cheek. Funny how it is, but I never want it to end... Never.

The beauty of what we have lies in the uncertainty of what to come. The beauty of us can be found in undecipherable puzzles with vague questions and impossible answers. We are young, foolish and confused. There is no other time in life that can ever be both the best and worst as now. What we have is beautiful and sad, because at any moment, we can lose each other. And that is why it is beautiful, and sad. Because it is so fleeting, so fragile, so uncertain. But despite everything, here we are, looking at your most beautiful photograph, side by side, smiling. And that is all that matters. Today. Now. This moment is all that matters.

"And all the chances that we take,
For years and years,
We'll have this place,
They were always for you,
Always for you"

Hush

Don't you make a sound,
Nobody can hear you,
Just listen to me
Listen for one last time...

Excuse me,
But use me again,
Confuse me, like you always do
And let me feel the pain,
I am always there

Are you happy now?
Have you had your fun?
Maybe it's time to stop
Maybe it's time to runaway

Spinning round and round
Try to fix you when you're down
You just, Pushed me away
Fallen to the ground
No one else to help me up
You just, crushed my heart today!

written by Nick Davis

*one of my ultimate fav now. it's exactly what i'm going through..*

Someone You Used To Know

It was helpless anyway
There's nothing much we could do or say
Darling don't you think it's a shame?
that it had to end this way

So here's to say goodbye,
our love is lost, and we cant figure why
maybe it really is about time
that we finally made up our minds

So Darling, here's to you
i hope that when you find someone new
that she would always be true to you
to love and understand you

Soon you'll build new memories
then slowly you'd forget about me
then i would slowly be
a distant memory

*Soon i'll just be
that someone you used to know
But darling you will thank me
for letting you go
time is not for wasting
i hope you'll find your intended
But i'm sorry
that your intended isn't me

it's not an easy thing
to shake off our history
i know that's what you want from me
but they will always stay with me

i admit i made mistakes
but darling with you it's just the same
if we stay there will be more to make
i dont know how much more we can take

Darling, it would be unfair
to stay with something no longer there
but it doesn't mean i no longer care
but i'd feel like a burden you can't bear

*Copyright 2008*
*KokoKaina*

Acoustic Raya @ Lepaq Cafe

Lepaq Performing Arts Cafe is hosting an acoustic showcase especially for this month's Aidilfitri celebrations. Lepaq Cafe believes that our modestly sized venue is no hindrace to hold an acoustic gig with a line up as long as a mini Rock The World concert.

Starting from 6.00pm till late, over 20 performers will grace the stage and knock your pants off. With a rojak variety of singer songwriters, bands, a few songbirds and an acapella group, it would surely be an unforgettable night at Lepaq Cafe.

We will be selling our super finger licking good lemang and rendang. Come with an empty stomach and fill it up with our specially homemade Raya food! We only get to have lemang and rendang for a month in a year. Before this month ends, make the most out of it!

Kokokaina will be performing at Acoustic Raya @ Lepaq!

Also, Rendra Zawawi and Izzy Mohamed will be selling their EPs there! Be sure to bring some spare cash ;)

Acoustic Raya @ Lepaq is proudly supported by Don't Panic Malaysia.

Ramadhan ALL YOU CAN EAT BBQ Buffet

It's not always that you can have an all-you-can-eat buka puasa BBQ buffet while listening to live music, no? Well, if you have RM20+ (that's only like 2 RM10 prepaid topups) and a bit of time to spare before packing off to balik kampung, do drop by Lepaq Cafe at Desa Hartamas this coming Saturday on the 27th September from 6.30pm to 10.30pm!

(for a sneak preview of how the place looks and feels like, click here.)

There will be acoustic performances by Radzlan, Arabella, Hanis & Friends, Voce (acapella), Miss Daya, Chot Ali and the Bandbin (formerly of Bau, must see!) and Captain G. And special guest performances by Ray Cheong, Rendra Zawawi and many more! Plus, the event will be covered by TV3's Remaja and sponsored by Don't Panic Malaysia! For those who have RSVP-ed confirmed there will be door gifts waiting for you on that day.

For you Facebookers, do check out the event page at Jom Berbuka & berBBQ @ Lepaq Cafe. If you don't have a Facebook account, contact Zara (016-2366617/017-3024840) or Atraz (019-3136915). Come on come all! Bring your friends, family, pets, anybody and everybody!

What I Am

At some point in life, most people get a sense of who they are as a person, and the kind of people they're going to become. If you ask them they'll tell you. They're going to be a doctor. A lawyer. An architect. An accountant. A Neurosurgeon. What they do for a living do more than describe their areas of expertise, they help define who they are. Because on the outside, reality, not only do most people have no clue who they are, they're afraid to find out. Believe it or not, I was trying to make everything better. Turns out, sometimes you have to do the wrong thing... Sometimes you have to make big mistake to figure out how to make things right. Mistakes are painful, but they're the only way to find out who you really are. I know who I am now. I know what I want.

Berhenti berharap...

aku duduk di sini..
menunggu..
kapan waktu aku untuk pergi.
pergi jauh.. untuk selamanya..

biar kusimpan semua itu,
satu kenangan terindah.
bukan diriku inginkannya,
tapi aku merelakannya..

kuingin memetik bintang..
--Surga menungguku;
Neraka pilihanku.

aku sudah berhenti berharap.

" kenapa ada derita bila bahagia tercipta?kenapa ada sang hitam bila putih menyenangkan?
aku pulang tanpa dendam,kuterima kekalahanku...kusalutkan kemenanganMu.. "- Sheila On 7

Last Night

[Diddy:]
Last night,
I couldn't even get an answer.
Tried to call,
But my pride wouldn't let me dial.
And I'm sitting here,
With this blank expression.
And the way I feel,
I wanna curl up like a child.

I know you can hear me
I know you can feel me
I can't live without you
God please make me better
I wish I wasn't the way I am

[Keyshia:]
If I told you once, I told you twice,
You can see it in my eyes.
I'm all cried out,
With nothing to say.
You're everything I wanted to be.
If you could only see,
Your heart belongs to me.
I love you so much, I'm yearning for your touch.
Come and set me free,
Forever yours I'll be,
Baby won't you come and take this pain away.

[Diddy:]
Last night,
I couldn't even get an answer.
Tried to call,
But my pride wouldn't let me dial.
And I'm sitting here,
With this blank expression.
And the way I feel,
I wanna curl up like a child.

[Keyshia:]
I need you,
And you need me.
This is so plain to see,
And I will never let you go and,
I will always love you so.
I will...
If you could only see,
Your heart belongs to me.
I love you so much, I'm yearning for your touch.
Come and set me free,
Forever yours I'll be,
Baby won't you come and take this pain away.

[Diddy:]
Last night,
I couldn't even get an answer.
Tried to call,
But my pride wouldn't let me dial.
And I'm sitting here,
With this blank expression.
And the way I feel,
I wanna curl up like a child.

[Diddy:]
Tell me what words to say,
To make you come back,
And break me like that.
And if it matters I'll rather stay home,
With you I'm never alone.
Don't want to wait till you're gone,
Whatever you do, just don't leave me.

[Diddy:]
Last night,
I couldn't even get an answer.
Tried to call,
But my pride wouldn't let me dial.
And I'm sitting here,
With this blank expression.
And the way I feel,
I wanna curl up like a child.

[Keyshia:]
I need you,
And you need me.
This is so plain to see,
And I will never let you go and,
I will always love you so.
I will...
If you could only see,
Your heart belongs to me.
I love you so much, I'm yearning for your touch.
Come and set me free,
Forever yours I'll be,
Baby won't you come and take my pain away.

[Diddy:]
Last night,
I couldn't even get an answer.
Tried to call,
But my pride wouldn't let me dial.
And I'm sitting here,
With this blank expression.
And the way I feel,
I wanna curl up like a child.

[Keyshia:]
I'm so alone I'm so lonely,

Why don't you pick the phone,
And dial up my number,
And call me up baby,
I'm waiting on you.

Why don't you pick the phone,
And dial up my number,
Just call me up baby,
I'm waiting on you.

[Phone dialing and ringing]
[Diddy:]
Hello
Hey what's-up
I've been tryin' to reach you all night
That shit ain't funny not picking up the motherfucking phone
Better stop fucking playing with a nigga's feelings like that
You know how much I love you right?
But for them couple of seconds though,
When I couldn't get in touch with you.
I'm ready to come over your house and shoot that motherfucker up
You better fucking not be there when I get over that house
[laughing]
That's really how it goes down right?

Falter.

I do believe I failed you
I know I let you down
don't you know I tried so hard
to love you in my way
it's easy let it go...

I'm empty since you left me
trying to find a way to carry on
I search myself and everyone
to see where we went wrong

'cause there's no one left to finger
there's no one here to blame
there's no one left to talk to honey
and there ain't no one to buy our innocence
'cause we are born innocent
believe me we are still innocent
it's easy, we all falter
does it matter?

I thought we could make it
but I know I can't change the way you feel
I leave you with your misery
a friend who won't betray
I pull you from your tower
I take away your pain
and show you all the beauty you possess
if you'd only let yourself believe that
we are born innocent

The Hill

Walking up the hill tonight
and you have closed your eyes,
I wish I didn't have to make all those mistakes and be wise.
Please try to be patient and know that I'm still learning.
I'm sorry that you have to see the strength inside me burning.

Where are you my angel now?
Don't you see me crying?
I know that you can do it all
but you can't say I'm not trying.
I'm on my knees in front of him
but he doesn't seem to see me
but all his troubles on this night
is looking right through me
and I'm letting myself down
by satisfying you
and I wish that you could see
I have my troubles, too.

Looking at you sleeping,
another man I love.
I'm sitting here weeping
while the hours pass so slow.
I know that in the morning
I have to let you go
and you'll be just a man
once I used to know.
Before these past days
someone I don't recognize
This isn't all my fault.
When will you realize?

Looking at you leaving,
I'm looking for a sign.

Falling Slowly

I don't know you
but I want you
all the more for that
words fall through me
and always fool me
and I can't react

games that never amount
to more than they're meant
will play themselves out

take this sinking boat
and point it home
we've still got time
raise your hopeful voice
you had the choice
you've made it now

falling slowly
eyes that know me
and I can't go back
wounds that take me
and erase me
and I'm painted black

well you have suffered enough
and warred with yourself
it's time that you've won

take this sinking boat
and point it home
we've still got time
raise your hopeful voice
you had the choice
you've made it now

take this sinking boat
and point it home
we've still got time
raise your hopeful voice
you had the choice
you've made it now

falling slowly
sing your melody
I'll sing it loud
loud

Glen Hansard & Markéta Irglová

I love all these songs by them. I knew it by watching the dvd titled "Once". I was browsing through looking for good dvd then i say the tag 'How often you meet the right person?' and so, I bought it. It's an Irish productions. Both of the main characters are real singers in person. Glen Hansard is the front man from the band The Frames and Markéta Irglová is a Czech singer songwriter. Well these are the list of the songs. Try to download all the songs. I love 'Falling slowly' and 'The Hill' best. The rest are pretty good too. =)

• All The Way Down
  
• Alone Apart
  
• Broken Hearted Hoover Fixer Sucker Guy
  
• Drown Out
  
• Fallen From The Sky
  
• Falling Slowly
  
• Gold
• If You Want Me
  
• Leave
  
• Lies
  
• Once
  
• Say It To Me Now
  
• Sleeping
  
• The Hill
  
• The Moon
  
• This Low
  
• Trying To Pull Myself Away
  
• When Your Mind's Made Up
  

I'll post the lyrics one by one, some of it means a lot to me. =)

Always for you

"I miss you..."

Beautiful Lie...

Lie awake in bed at night
And think about your life
Do you want to be different?
Try to let go of the truth
The battles of your youth
’Cause this is just a game

It's a beautiful lie
It's a perfect denial
Such a beautiful lie to believe in
So beautiful, beautiful lie makes me

It's time to forget about the past
To wash away what happened last
Hide behind an empty face
Don't ask too much, just say
'Cause this is just a game

Everyone's looking at me
I'm running around in circles
A quiet desperation's building higher
I've got to remember this is just a game




"Be not afraid of life.Believe that life IS worth living and your belief will help create the fact." -James Truslow Adams

I feel LOVE

menghapus jejakmu

l to r : ati,hafiz,moi+shauna @ UV Nation,One Utama 2007
[ kenangan lalu ... ]

Menghapus Jejakmu - Peterpan

Terus melangkah melupakanmu
Belah hati perhatikan sikapmu
Jalan pikiranmu buatku ragu
Tak mungkin ini tetap bertahan

Perlahan mimpi terasa mengganggu
Kucoba untuk terus menjauh
Perlahan hatiku terbelenggu
Kucoba untuk lanjutkan itu

Engkau bukanlah segalaku
Bukan tempat tuk hentikan langkahku
Usai sudah semua berlalu
Biar hujan menghapus jejakmu

Terus melangkah melupakanmu
Belah hati perhatikan sikapmu
Jalan pikiranmu buatku ragu
Tak mungkin ini tetap bertahan

Perlahan mimpi terasa mengganggu
Kucoba untuk terus menjauh
Perlahan hatiku terbelenggu
Kucoba untuk lanjutkan itu

Engkau bukanlah segalaku
Bukan tempat tuk hentikan langkahku
Usai sudah semua berlalu
Biar hujan menghapus jejakmu

Lepaskan segalanya
Lepaskan segalanya

Engkau bukanlah segalaku
Bukan tempat tuk hentikan langkahku
Usai sudah semua berlalu
Biar hujan menghapus jejakmu

Nanananana
Nanananana
Nanananana
Nnananana
Nanananana
Nanananana

lagu nie kene sangat.. hari nie 29/08/2007 birthday ati.my "bestfriend" of 14 years. we're no longer friends now. it's been 4 months we haven't been talking to each other. actually, i totally forgot it's her birthday. i never forget her birthday. guess this is it. memang betul aku menghapus jejak mereka dari hidup aku. sedey? bohong la kalau aku tak sedey. tapi aku rasa, i'm used to it already. not having them around. kata dah 4 bulan. i wish them all the best in their life. i'm happy with what i have right now. insyaAllah i'll improve to a better life than this. insyaAllah... i'm wishing,hoping and praying that danial will be by my side all the way..not just him..the rest of my friends. REAL friends. they know who they are. i'm glad to know you guys are still around. i love you guys. kisses~

secret love

Swizz beats, ladies and gentlemen (come on, come on, come on)
Ladies and gentlemen (Mariah, Mariah)
Ladies and gentlemen
As we go a little somethin' like this
Hit it!

[Mariah]
Oh baby, oh baby
Come give it to me now, baby
But keep it between us
You and me got a secret love, baby

Oh baby, oh baby
Come give it to me now, baby
But keep it on the hush
You're not mine, got a secret love, baby

It was a summers day
When walking by
She didn't notice as
As you turned and you discreetly winked your eye
And I remember you from back in the day
You were the boy I couldn't breathe without
The one that got away

Oh baby, oh baby
Come give it to me now, baby
But keep it between us
You and me got a secret love, baby (secret love)

Oh baby, oh baby
Come give it to me now, baby
But keep it on the hush
You're not mine, got a secret love, baby (you're not mine)

Oh, now that I found you, I cannot let you go
You know I got my man at home
But baby, I still need you so
And I know you ain't never leaving that girl
But everytime you touch me, baby, it feels so incredible

Oh baby, oh baby
Come give it to me now, baby (oh baby)
But keep it between us
You and me got a secret love, baby (you and me)

Oh baby, oh baby (oh baby)
Come give it to me now, baby (come on and give it to me, boy)
But keep it on the hush
You're not mine, got a secret love, baby

Breakdown

Secret lovers, yeah

You and me, you and me, you and me, baby

Oh baby, oh baby
Come give it to me now, baby
But keep it between us (keep it on the hush)
You and me got a secret love, baby

Oh baby, oh baby
Come give it to me now, baby
But keep it on the hush (but keep it)
You're not mine got a secret love, baby

Baby, baby, baby
Come give it to me, baby
We got a secret love, darling
Keep it between us, baby


when i read it again..i just smiled.but i actually love the song.the lyrics.superb.thats when i noticed what the song is actually all about.hahaha~ whoever are having an affair.u can dedicate this song.hahaha~