Serendipity

I'm a mother of 3.
I'm blessed.

I love them like my own kids. I've never thought I'd be as happy as I am right now. I'm proud of them. I'm doing my best to give what they want. But, has anyone question me what I want?

I think my boys can go far.. If only they can see what I'm doing for them. Whenever they're on the stage, I feel like crying. I fell in love with them. No matter how tired or sad I am, whenever I see them fooling around or even making fun of me, it warms my heart. Now, I know how does my mom feels.

All I pray is to be together with them for a long time. I love my kids, they are my new family.

Lover's Dead Lane

It's been 2 days here.. I'm going home soon. Can't believe I took another road trip to find peace. Thank god it's over between me and him. The argument. I feel better now. Penang is lovely. Celebrating Valentine's all alone. Cruising around the island. Not as beautiful as Langkawi but in a way, I found my 2nd home. Close enough though...Didn't get a chance to take photos as I forgot to bring my camera along. I wish I don't have to go back, but hey, reality check, I got bills to pay. Another place for me to throw away all my sadness. Coming back to Penang next week for Bunkface's gig. Can't wait. Wish I could bring him along...

Kekwat Gitu.

"Kenapa dengan Bunkface tu?

BUKAN sekali tetapi dah banyak kali Papa mendengar rungutan tentang band indie yang sedang meningkat naik nama mereka sekarang.

Siapa lagi kalau bukan Bunkface yang sedang top dengan lagu Situasi tu. Amboi, hebat mereka kan? Lagu Situasi tu pun dah berjaya menjuarai beberapa carta radio popular di negara ini.

Tetapi, yang tak sedapnya, sedang asyik diulit dengan populariti, rupanya Papa dengar cerita kumpulan Bunkface ni dikatakan berlagak sampaikan tidak mahu membuat sesi fotografi ataupun ditemu ramah oleh media.

Kawan Papa yang cantik jelita bermata kuyu pun rupanya pernah terkena dan apa yang membuatkan kawan Papa ni naik hantu apabila pengurus Bunkface yang bernama Zara memang sombong dalam memberikan jawapannya.

“Minta maaflah ya. Kami tidak akan buat sesi fotografi dengan mana-mana media sebab kami hanya mahu menumpukan perhatian kepada promosi album dan lagu sahaja. Bunkface tiada masa untuk sesi fotografi kerana terlalu sibuk,” kata Zara kepada kawan Papa tadi dalam nada yang cukup menyakitkan hati.

Agaknya Zara baru lagi kot jadi pengurus dan tidak faham selok-belok dunia artis ni? Bukankah sesi fotografi itu juga sebahagian daripada promosi untuk Bunkface.

Helo, artis lama dan senior pun masih lagi sudi nak buat sesi fotografi dengan akhbar dan majalah sebab mereka tahu itu adalah promosi untuk mereka.

Tidak mengapalah. Mungkin Bunkface dan pengurusnya tidak memerlukan media untuk membantu mereka kerana ada cara promosi mereka yang tersendiri.

Kalau lepas ni ada apa-apa yang terjadi, jangan nak salahkan wartawan pula sebab tidak memberi sokongan dan publisiti."

Sometimes, I just don't understand some people. Just trying to provoke me. Alhamdulillah, I handle it well. It's just another challenge for me working in this industry. Oh, well.. Pepatah melayu kita - " Tak kenal, maka tak cinta."

Maharani

Mereka kata ku gila
Lagilah aku suka
Otakku geliga
Fikiran luar biasa

Mereka kata ku samseng
Tapi ku tak ambil pusing
Pedulikan semua
Fikir apa yang penting

Semua tuduhan
Fitnah belaka
Ada yang suka
Juga ada yang benci
Biar peluru menembus kulitku
Suatu yang pasti kekal abadi

Jangan percaya kata mereka
- Maharani, Butterfingers.

This is for the people out there. Don't judge a book by its cover.

Zara Ismail.

Brave New World

Fresh starts. Thanks to the calendar, they happen every year. Just set your watch to January.Our reward for surviving the holiday season is a new year. Bringing on the great tradition of New Year resolutions.Put your past behind you and start over. It’s hard to resist the chance of a new beginning. A chance to put the problems of last year to bed.Who gets to determine when the old ends and the new begins? It’s not a day on a calendar. Not a birthday, not a new year. It’s an event, big or small, something that changes us. Ideally it gives us hope.A new way of living and looking at the world. Letting go of old habits, old memories. What’s important is that we never stop believing that we can have a new beginning. But it’s also important to remember that amid all the crap, there are a few things really worth holding on to.

It's been awhile. I've been busy. Not dead. Still breathing.

Tasks:-

• Managing Bunkface - shows back to back (been a crazy month for me)
• Running events at Lepaq (finally quits and 26th Dec 08 was my last gig)
• Running my own company (finally registered and doing a few projects with my partner, Meor Ezarim)
• Spending time with my bestfriend, Atie and my dearest sister, Nelly (both going through hard time)
• Saving my "companionship" (in a way, since both him and I are busy, we hardly spend time together and mostly it's about work and I totally forgot how does it feels)

By today, midnight, it's 2009. I don't really have a long list for resolutions, but I do know what I want.

Goals:-

• Making sure my babies, hence, Bunkface, grow to the next level - Sunburst KL, Melbourne, Singapore, Indonesia.
• My company ; READY STEADY GO EVENTS, do lots of events 
• Malaysian Festival in Melbourne - 3rd October 2009 (gift for my 25th birthday)
• Still breathing
• Happy with him

It's gonna be a brave new world out there for me. InsyaAllah. I've been waiting for these moments. InsyaAllah, I'm gonna make it through.. 

Happy New Year folks! May all your dreams come true.. I do.

Welcome 2009, Goodbye 2008.

Zara Ismail

Situasi

There's one day, a very good friend of mine buzz me up on ym;

nuril anwar: zara, ada band nak cari manager la. zara nak tak?
zara322_g: ye ke? band apa? zara ok je la la la la~
nuril anwar: ok ok nanti nuril kasi no
zara zara322_g: oh ok ok.. haha yang tade experience nie jadi band manager.. hahaha
nuril anwar: hahhaa try jeeeee

Later on, I got a call from this dude, Ijam, calling me while I just woke up explaining to me about
the band. I then sms him, 'Can you please sms me the name of the band again?'. He replied, ' www.myspace.com/bunkface '. My eyes stop blinking. 'Bunkface?', I mentioned it a couple of times and then I straight away called Shinzu, "Bunny! omg omg omg, I might be Bunkface manager!". "You're serious?!", that's all he asked. "Yes! I can't believe it, we went to Laundry a couple of weeks ago and watched them..", "Bagus la tu..".

There you go, after a meeting, went to watch them performed at MCPA hall on 2nd November 2008, I knew, good thing will come.

My very first trip with them was to X-gig at Ipoh, Perak. I was damn nervous. I cried calling my best friend that I wanted to see her before I left and it's only for 2 nights. I had a fight with my bunny, because I wanted to talk to him as well. I left without saying goodbye.

Where X-gig is held

the band is interviewed by Shaz @ X.fm

During my journey, I can't believe that I'm actually leaving town with strangers. Worried I might not get along very well. Truth is, I did. I had so much fun there. I made new friends. The Tyre burst during the 3 hours journey. It was at km288.3 and I won't ever ever forget that. I was even called " hot "mum" ". I shall not name, name. Haha. I had 16 "children" to be taken cared. I remember how cute they all were.. I had to hold an umbrella to make them go to bed. Wake them up early and make sure they get breakfast and go to "school" (sound check) early. Fun.

Ijam "fixing" the Tyre

I shall not forget this.

crazy frigging awesome crowd!

with my "children"

with the X.fm crews and few of my "children"
(Bunkface and friends/entourage)

Lata Kijang, Perak

On the way back, we stopped at Lata Kijang, Perak. Beautiful. I walked all the way up to get nice shots. Wished I had a DSLR. Wished I knew how to use it as well. Tee Hee Hee. It was one of the best trips I had after a long time. Last I remembered it was to Port Dickson with my bunny and friends and that was few months ago.

Now, I'm at home. Sick. Boo Hoo Hoo.

I miss my bunny.

I miss my bestie.

I want my mommy.

Broken Heart

Dan bila kau menghilang
Musnah lah, musnah impian
tuk menggapai bintang
terangi hidup ku
Ku mahu kau tahu
engkaulah, destinasiku
dalam ingatanku - Situasi