Reinvented.

As I entered the book store, I know that familiar smell. The smell of new books. Just with that smell, brings me down to memory lane. Tears flowing like a dam just broke. My heart ache. I feel the pain. The pain that I've been denying to feel. The pain of loss. The pain of loneliness. The pain of heartbroken. I had to get out from there. As I rushed out, my steps stop. I couldn't blink. That book was staring at me -- or I was just being paranoid. " I have to let go.." I said to myself.

"Why? Why can't I just be this way? Why can't I feel how and what I feel right now?" asked the demon in me; more likely a poor heartbroken girl, begging me not to let go.

'Shut up! Just shut up! Learn how to stand on your own. One day he'll leave..' That's all I could say to her. I wiped my tears furiously. Stepped out of the store with my head held up and that tiny voice in me, "Don't give up, you're still learning.." I put up a smile, not knowing it's fake or real...

Strange Effect

You've got this strange effect on me;
and I like it.

You make my darkness bright.
You're my shining knight.

You've got this strange effect on me;
and I like it.

You took me in your arms.
You spin with me and dance.

You've got this strange effect on me;
and I like it.

I like the way you kiss me.
I don't how to feel it,
I love it.

You've got this strange effect on me;
and I like it...

Shadows of Ourselves

Mechanical heart where are your batteries ?
Lost in a world totally stranger
What is the reason for all these lies
We don't have the right to withdraw anymore

What is this intoxication that pulls us
From where come all these words that attack me
Incomplete pleasures that bewitch me
We don't have the right to close these doors anymore

I do not have time to panic
To save us from ourselves

Tired of being sorry

I don't know why
You want to follow me tonight
When the rest of the world
With whom I've crossed and I've quarreled
Let's me down so
For a thousand reasons that I know
To share forever the unrest
With all the demons I possess
Beneath the silver moon

So far away - so outer space
I've trashed myself - I've lost my way
I'm standing in the street
Crying out for you
No one sees me
But the silver moon

Maybe you were right
But I was lonely
I don't want to fight
I'm tired of being sorry

What If You

What if you wish me away,
would you spoke those words today?
What if you said those words I've longed to hear,
would I'll be there to care?

I've always felt like I belong.
I've always felt you holding me;
Kissing me.

What if you could treat me better,
would you write me a letter?
What if you...
and I'll be forever with you.

Save me

You know how when you were a kid and you believed in fairy tales? That fantasy of what your life would be. White dress, Prince Charming, who'd carry you away to a castle on a hill. You'd lie in bed at night and close your eyes, and you had complete and utter faith. Santa Claus, the Tooth Fairy, Prince Charming, they were so close, you could taste them. But eventually, you grow up.

One day you open your eyes, and the fairy tale disappears. Most people turn to the things and people they can trust. But the thing is, it's hard to let go of that fairy tale entirely. Cause almost everyone still has that smallest bit of hope, of faith, that one day they'll open their eyes and it will all come true. At the end of the day, faith is a funny thing. It turns up when you don't really expect it. It's like one day you realize that the fairy tale may be slightly different than you dreamed. The castle, well...it may not be a castle. And it's not so important that it's happily ever after. Just that it's happy right now. Once in a while, once in a blue moon, people will surprise you. And once in a while...people may even take your breath away.