Another day of relapsed.
Missing my dad.
I'm tired of feeling this way. I push aside my worries, more comes in the way. I'm beyond words than crazy. It's killing me. I don't think I can't take it. Here I am crying, wishing things are back to before my dad's passing. Am I selfish to think that way? I don't know how to take this responsibilities. I always screw things up. Can I do this? I'm tired of being dependant on anyone. For once, I want to stand on my own two feet.
Funny when I can't say it out loud to people but I can easily blog about it.
I just want my bestfriend back.
Unfortunately, God loves him more. Times like this, he always know what to say to me. This is the most difficult part.
I don't think I can take these right now. I'm too fragile.