It hurts so much. I'm out with all my good friends but I can't stop thinking about him. I'm really hurting. Not to make things obvious, I smiled and laughed weakly. There's only one person can see through my eyes, how sad I was. Sometimes, it is so hard to pretend.
" He's having fun. You should. Why must you be sad and him smiling? ", that's what an old flame of mine said to me. I wish things are differently. I'm not strong enough anymore. I don't have that strength. I'm tired of it. It's too much to take it at once.
I don't deserve it.