Tuesday, May 18, 2010

You Wreck Me

Me : How did we let this end this way when it could've been better?

Him : I don't know.

Me : For all the things we've been through, I'm angry, I'm upset, I'm disappointed and I'm frustrated. BUT, you don't have to apologize because I forgave you and I'm sorry for the things I've done and said to you..

Him : I won't let you dissappear from my life.

Me : .....

That was the last conversation we had. Well, partly. We hugged, and walked away. That was two and a half months ago. I'm still bitter. When I had to talk to him, I became this person that I wasn't. I became angry. I'm moving on, yet the wound hasn't heal. I hate myself right now. This is not me. I'm only happier when I see my babies (best & good friends) and my family. When I'm alone, I'm bitter.

I'm quieter compared before. I hesitated when the guys came closer. I don't see the world as it was. I was a lover and I'm not anymore.

I'm wrecked.
You wreck me.

Too long we’ve been denying
Now we’re both tired of trying
We hit a wall and we can’t get over it
Nothing to relive
It’s water under the bridge
~ "It Is What It Is" by Lifehouse


kupukupuKertas said...

breaking up is hard. but you will recover. just be patient and never loose your faith okay :)

ListenLiveLove said...

i'm so sorry...i had a similar conversation with my best friend...except he said he loved me even though he had a girlfriend...and i'm so sorry...but don't give up...in time things will heal, and you'll find someone better, even though right now you may not think so