Loved

"I've never been happier compared before.
I've never been so sad compared before.
I've never been scared compared before.
I've never felt at ease compared before.
I've never questioned a lot compared before.
I've never..."

I couldn't remember the last time I felt truly happy, when somebody or something caused me to laugh so hard my stomach pained and my jaw ached. I missed going to bed at night with absolutely nothing on my mind. I missed the feeling of being loved, sensing the eyes of the person who loved me, I missed those touches, hugs, words of advices and words of love by someone who loved me...

Even in the company of friends I felt all alone; in a room of thousand people I would feel alone. But mostly when I roamed in my own house, I felt all alone.