Difference between Friends and Bestfriend

i got this from my online buddy,shareen. she posted at myspace bulletin and this is soo true. and now,it makes me missed "her" so much.i wonder what and how is she doing right now.. i guess she's living a very wonderful life.last i've heard her parents left to u.s to send her younger sis at some uni there.i hope she's gonna be okay..take care my old friend..there's still a small space for you in my heart. it's true what people says, It takes a minute to have a crush on someone, an hour to like them and a day to fall in love. But it takes forever to forget someone. doesn't really matter whether it's relationship or friendship but what it says is so true..and here are the differences.check it out~

Friend: calls your parents by mr. and mrs.
Best friend: calls your parents dad & mom or tito & tita. (
Friend: has never seen you cry
Best friend: has always has the best shoulder to cry on
Friend: never asks for anything to eat or drink
Best friend: opens the fridge & makes himself at home
Friend: asks you to write down your number.
Best friend: they ask you for their number (cuz they can't remember it)

Friend: borrows your stuff for a few days then gives it back.
Best friend: has a closet full of your stuff
Friend: only knows a few things about you
Best friend: could write a biography on your life story
Friend : will leave you behind if that is what t! he crowd is doing
Best friend: will always go with you

Friend: will ask where you've been (after going AWOL)
Best Friend: will say I MISS YOU & goes on being your friend
Friend: would delete this letter
Best friend: will send this back to me and all of their online buddies

i'm so sad now.i want to cry.i hate missing her.makes me feel so stupid.haih.baby~ take this pain away now..

Zara D.

rush hour

last night when to one utama with oza to watch rush hour 3.the movie starts at 9.10 (that's what written in the ticket) but truth is the ads only showed for 30 minutes.. i've been wanting to watch rush hour 3 with danial but unfortunately, time envied us so i manage to watch with my dear friend oza. when the movie started i was trying to remember what happen in rush hour 1 + 2. totally forgot about it. anyway, after watching the whole movie.. ok there's a few part is hilarious and others are too cliche.. i only wanted to watch it because i want to see jackie chan's stunt. but i enjoyed throughout the movie.thanks oza for taking me out!! anyway, i'm sorry to know what happened to you. be a man and think wisely which is good for you.this is your future we're talking about.to the rest,an important advise here.. every decision you've made or will make in life, will take effect and change your entire life.. so choose wisely and NEVER EVER regret what happen in life,take it as a beautiful lesson by god cause when you do regret it,the past will haunt you. have faith.believe... kisses people~


Zara D.

an event that no one should miss..

this is an event no one should miss~
he's one of the good singer-songwriter.1st time i saw him performing was at No Black Tie Merdeka Showcase.ouh by the way, i just got a sms from my darling boyfriend saying that he has to cancel tonight.damn! i really thought i could meet him up for dinner and watch it together..tapi harapan je la..nampak gaya nye have to make another plan for tonight..so sad la. haiyo..maybe catch a movie sumthing like dat ke.. now i'm sad. guess i'll be seeing danial next week je la.have to understand he's a student still.not like me working already. haih~
maybe i'll go and catch a movie with oza.tu pon tatau jadi ke tak lagi..haiyo..busan nye nk kuar nk kuar!!! hope today bley kuar la...
look at the title of this post.looks like it i'm gonna miss it! hahaha~

merdeka's eve @ bamboo

thanks to ida,i got few pix. had lotsa fun!! think we shud do it again babes. these are few pix taken by ida. excuse the distortion. she's wasted.all of us partied as if it's new year! but its all cool. kisses to everyone~

ida + moi

ida + moi again

oza + moi

party people @ bamboo

unforgettable..

last weekend was one of the best week and worse week of my life..
it was merdeka's eve and my beloved sumone had to canceled me last minute because of unavoidable reasons. well, it did shattered my heart and pissed me off but i have to see on the bright side cause there's always a GOOD reason behind it. anyway, i went off to bar flam at sunway with my girlfriends and enjoyed the fireworks with the "mat rempits" that they blast from sunway lagoon. it was fun but it wouldn't be the same if danial was there.. then, later on i joined my friend at bamboo, ttdi plaza. it's awesome place! love the crowds there. am waiting the pictures from ida,oza's sister in law. i'll post it soon.

well,that's on 30th of August 2007. Happy 50th Birthday Malaysia!! so the next day on 31st August 2007, Friday, my darling boyfriend took me out the whole day [making it up to me..and i really appreciate it!thanks baby~ i know u sayang me so much,and i sayang you too.. !]. we went to catch a movie at Summit USJ. we watched "The Invasion". it was played by Nicole Kidman and that dude from the latest james bond sumthing craig if i'm not mistaken. so anyway the movie was adrenaline rush.it's quite good. kinda like it. at first it was scary..imagine u get infected by this alien dna and then evolve to a very dull person.so boring. but anyway, after the movie, we went to have late lunch at pizza uno at taipan and shoot off straight to central market. there's a merdeka event going on. there was a few bands playing.i don't even know who the line ups were. i didn't really enjoyed it because it was hot and too many people there. met a couple of old friends. especially shahida (friends of 14-15 years.). she opened up a booth to sell her stuffs. basically funky clothes.

after a while, we convoyed to No Black Tie. There's a Merdeka showcase. It's a beautiful place. Located at Lorong Mesui, Jln Nagasari off Jln Raja Chulan behind Istana Hotel. We had a glass of wine accompany with wonderful singer-songwriter performing such as Reza Salleh (ouh ouh i have the biggest crush on him!his voice is soooo wonderful~ la la la) , Mia Palencia , Izzy, Zalila Lee, Pete Teo, Isaac Entry and of course Azmyl Yunor (damn cool lecturer.reminds me of Aby Huraira but Azmyl is cooler.no offense aby!). There are even poerty reading by Bernice Chauly and jokes told by Amir Muhammad ("it's with double Ms and a U and i'm new on facebook." hahahha!) and Phang Khee Theik ("it's still bleeding.." eew eew but funny!). the show started at 10 and ended around 1++am. it's worth of going. thank you baby for taking me there. it's one of the highlights of the year for me. we should do that again every once a month BUT this time just me and you please..here are a couple of photos of me and danial at NBT.

our "moment"

moi + D. @ No Black Tie

well, the next day, 1st September 2007 (ouh my god it's september already!!), we spent times together then meet up my parents at Taman Permata, KL. Layter on we went to Naili's ampang..ouh it's been awhile i haven't see abang lee, mil and abang zul. really missed them. actually nothing much happen on the 1st except we went to farrah's 22nd birthday bbq. ouh she's eizaq's new gf. very decent girl. most of the time she's quiet. she's very talented!! i love it when she plays the piano. ouh k~ she has grand piano!! been wanting to play piano for ages and i got that chance! I haven't touch the piano for more than 10 years. i remembered smashing the piano after all of my family members kept comparing me to farah (my cousin which is the same age as i am and who is an intelligent person and talented and an angel.). i'm totally the opposite. what can i do,i'm the black sheep of the family.and i really enjoyed doing it too~ give them some entertainment. hahahha~ =P anyway, the party was one of the best! quite hillarious! imagine, ok ok i dun want to get sum people offended. so i apologize in advance yeahhhh~

the bbq was held at farrah's house opposite of KGNS, Kelana Jaya. so most of the guest was her relatives. makcik pakai tudung and all.. this is the first bbq party i went that has a DJ (ok.the dj was quite bad.playing bsbs' songs?) and they have laser light (ouh kalo time2 tgh syiok party tuh konfem sasau) and they have smoke machine!! wah wah wah~ cool gile okaayyy~ so after the karaoke session (mostly it was fully utilized by Eizaq and sabby. ouh sabby has a wonderful voice.loike it!),it's party time.. (yeah when it was karaoke session it's not considered as party yet.)! so the dj put on few songs like beyonce,j.lo, and many more (lazy laaa to cracked up my head and remember the songs) then we were like "it's farrah's party,lets dance and not spoil the party" and so we did until all the aunties with tudung joined us at the "dance floor" doing some sort of dirty dancing.it's cool but it's hilarious! couldn't imagine it one of them were my mom! ouh my god!! Na'uzubillah~ here are few pix from the party taken by my wonderful boyfriend. as usual he'll be the unofficial photographer which is good for him to practice more on the skills.

l to r : sabby, bday gal + moi

sabby + eizaq - our entertainer

r to l : our mr latip and eizaq's bro nhis gal (i kept forgetting his name!)

told ya! got prove! but they are damn cool~

see got laser light summore...

cute couple!

very talented gal u hv there eizaq!

it was such a good night. while on my way back home (at usj 16) i feel so sad, i have to break the news to my bro in law and sister that i'm moving out. i feel sad coz i won't be able to hear my nephews calling me dede... plus now my sis is pregnant so im afraid she's gonna get so sensitive.
once i've reached home,i met my bro in law.broke the news, and guess what he said, "i knew from the start already." . ces, buat penat aku je risau..but when i broke the news to my sis,i hugged her and cried saying im sorry for the things i did if i ever hurt her feelings and i told her how much i missed talking to her and i feel so sad i gotta leave subang.gotta leave home.so,i went upstairs to my room..packed up few important things then go to bed.

2nd september 2007 -- hari ini dalam sejarah, saya telah pindah ke ken damansara condo at damansara intan. wahlauweih..my housemate are quite nice people.segan pon ada.so we went for furniture hunting and bought a 3 seater sofa,tv rack and a dining table from cavenzi. layter on danial came and picked me up,went for dinner at syed bistro ss19 (god!! cant the service get any worse??).we waited for the rest of the group and shoot off to putrajaya to see the fireworks.
horibble traffic!!! but it's worth of going though we didnt reached our real destination since everyone were supposed to meet up by 730pm at syed bistro but all came late as usual.i'm still waiting the photo from danial but here are few pictures of moi,danial,adi,eizaq and farrah.

terrer kn bf saya amek gambar??hehehe..that firework was launched from canadian team.it was splendid! right after the show we all went back to subang, dropped eizaq and farrah at syed bistro then adi,danial and moi headed to asia cafe for supper.we stayed there til late.real late. i really had fun last weekend,though at first it sucks,but after that it turned out ok.. thanks to my baby..sayang you!! thanks for th e whole weekend ye sayang..especially No Black Tie Merdeka Showcase. we really should do that again JUST THE TWO OF US.. anyway, i think i've blogged long enough,and i'm hungry and my dear boss is waiting for me.gotta go now..kisses~

Zara D.

my instincts

i hate it when my left i je yang kelip kelip.i know i'm gonna cry but i dunno because of wat and i totally hate it to wait for it.ouh lama nye nak balik lagi.i hate another to be precised 22mins to 6pm. i'm still waiting for his call.guess he's pretty busy.nak call takot.dah la mata kiri dok kelip kelip.dah anta sms.tapidia tak reply.mmg busy la gamaknye. adoi.. dah la aku terkontang kanting tatau apa plan malam nie,pukol brape plak dia nak amek aku.haiyo.i hate waiting.its like forever. can't it be fast?i don't know.. sometimes, i have this feeling of losing it. like there's no more sparks but truth is, i'm deep in love with him. it's just one of those days that u can't stand with each other needed your own space kinda thing. i need more friends.i need more activities. i totally can't wait to move out.i can go swimming every day.haaaa tak payah i have to susah susah go to gym.anyway, i want to log off now..kisses to everyone and happy merdeka!

the wanted wanting the wanter

last night was such a frustrating day for me.i went room hunting with danial. went to all the 7-eleven in section 14 & 17 to look at the notice board.might never know i got lucky. well, i saw this ad at www.klue.com.my classified. posted,

"Available 1st SEPTEMBER!! Ken Damansara, Block A, 6th floor. Location: Damansara Intan, near sec17 and SS2. Mater bedroom with air-con, attached bathroom with water heater = RM550. Small room with fan, shared bathroom, with water heater = RM300. Female house-mate. 1 month deposit only, rental exclusive of utilities. House partly furnish with kitchen cabinet, etc... PM me for contact number n details."

and so,i made the appointment to take a look. ouh my god..it's so frustrating somehow, living in a cell. its too small. but for RM300 it's kinda expensive and not worth it. so i went home with this frustrating feelings. The girl, Rou Xi, she said, she'll think about it about exchanging the room since i wanted the middle room. i told her i was willingly to pay about RM450.so she told me she'll give me a call tomoro which is today. i was totally frustrated when i think about it. so on the way to the office, as usual i hitched a ride with angah [my senior at mtdc.she's working at block C phileo dsara 1 too.].i told her how sad i am.so she told me ," the wanted wanting the wanter and the whole universe would conspirate to help u achieve it" its a quote from jalaludin rumi. a sufism poet.her idol. hehe..

this is what i chat with her after the good news.well part of it..she gave me an important advice..

zara322_g: i believe u babe.seriously
angah: yeah babe.. have faith!
angah: he also said that failure is the key to life
angah: coz it'll make u realize that ure depending on Him. and thats when miracles happen
angah: if we dont fail, God only teaches us to fly with one wing
angah: thats why failures are essential
angah: :D
angah: bila aku down, i always think that way
zara322_g: ouh ouh ouh important lesson of the day babe!!
zara322_g: thanks.many thanks..
zara322_g: :)
angah: takdahal la babe
angah: im happy for u
angah: coz nmpk sgt u really wanted this so bad
angah: and u got it
angah: wow
angah: seriously
zara322_g: exactly..tu ah..ko tatau aku melompat camne bile dpt msg dari rou xi.dia tulis .. "morning my dear. do u still interested to rent the medium room? i kind of like u actually should be nice to stay with you.." waahhhhh sapa tak happy
zara322_g: i tot she was just being nice je semlm when she said she'll call me if she change her mind to exchange room w me.
angah: heheheheheheheh
angah: what a luck, babe
angah: but nothing happens by chance
angah: ur fate has been written

so i guess...have faith in whatever you do.and keep on praying..you might never know when He'll answer your prayer. :)

menghapus jejakmu

l to r : ati,hafiz,moi+shauna @ UV Nation,One Utama 2007
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Menghapus Jejakmu - Peterpan

Terus melangkah melupakanmu
Belah hati perhatikan sikapmu
Jalan pikiranmu buatku ragu
Tak mungkin ini tetap bertahan

Perlahan mimpi terasa mengganggu
Kucoba untuk terus menjauh
Perlahan hatiku terbelenggu
Kucoba untuk lanjutkan itu

Engkau bukanlah segalaku
Bukan tempat tuk hentikan langkahku
Usai sudah semua berlalu
Biar hujan menghapus jejakmu

Terus melangkah melupakanmu
Belah hati perhatikan sikapmu
Jalan pikiranmu buatku ragu
Tak mungkin ini tetap bertahan

Perlahan mimpi terasa mengganggu
Kucoba untuk terus menjauh
Perlahan hatiku terbelenggu
Kucoba untuk lanjutkan itu

Engkau bukanlah segalaku
Bukan tempat tuk hentikan langkahku
Usai sudah semua berlalu
Biar hujan menghapus jejakmu

Lepaskan segalanya
Lepaskan segalanya

Engkau bukanlah segalaku
Bukan tempat tuk hentikan langkahku
Usai sudah semua berlalu
Biar hujan menghapus jejakmu

Nanananana
Nanananana
Nanananana
Nnananana
Nanananana
Nanananana

lagu nie kene sangat.. hari nie 29/08/2007 birthday ati.my "bestfriend" of 14 years. we're no longer friends now. it's been 4 months we haven't been talking to each other. actually, i totally forgot it's her birthday. i never forget her birthday. guess this is it. memang betul aku menghapus jejak mereka dari hidup aku. sedey? bohong la kalau aku tak sedey. tapi aku rasa, i'm used to it already. not having them around. kata dah 4 bulan. i wish them all the best in their life. i'm happy with what i have right now. insyaAllah i'll improve to a better life than this. insyaAllah... i'm wishing,hoping and praying that danial will be by my side all the way..not just him..the rest of my friends. REAL friends. they know who they are. i'm glad to know you guys are still around. i love you guys. kisses~

chentaKu..

ouh how i miss my baby so much..we're almost 6 months together [i sooo can't believe it!] and i'm lucky to have him. he's my heart and soul now. he's been a very supportive boyfriend and a very normal one! hahaha.. finally.. i'm so happy being with him. i miss you baby~ thank god i've found you...

i'm falling in love all over again and i cannot imagine what it means. i cannot understand the hand life has dealt me, the timing of its appearance, or the possibility of what it means. i cannot understand this, nor do i pretend to.i find i have been blessed with a wonderful chance- a chance to open my heart up again to someone who means more to me than anything i know. i do not know how the course of time conspired to bring me this chance to pass, nor do i care. all i know is that i have been presented with a rare and fantastic opportunity, and that i cannot allow it to pass me by. for one whom lives in the past will allow the future to pass them by. i am scared, however. i am scared because i do not know what will come of this. i am scared because i do not know what will happen if i open my heart back up. i am scared because i am unable to fathom what this relationship could mean for me. i am scared because the last time i opened my heart up i ended up being hurt. i ended up being hurt and i do not want to endure that pain again but i am willing to take that chance. i will take the chance because of him. i will take the chance because he means more to me than anything i know. i may be scared, but i do not want to lose him, and i will open my heart up to him. for i find in him an inexhaustible beauty, an unfathomable grace, and the infinite wonder of a man who has brought me back into the world, and shown me what it is to be loved once more. he has changed me, and for that i am thankful. he has awakened in me emotions i once thought dead, and he has given me such joy that i shall never be able to repay him.

I've fallen in love all over again. thanks to u ..

this love...

This love
This love is a strange love
In that it can lift a love
This love

This love
I think I'm gonna fall again
And ever when you held the hand
And turn 'em in your fingers, love

This love
Now rehearsed we stay, love
Doesn't know it is love
This love

This love
Doesn't have to feel love
Doesn't care to be love
It doesn't mean a thing
This love

This love loves love
It's a strange love, strange love

This love
This love
This love is a strange love, strange love
I'm gonna fall again love
Doesn't mean a thing
Think I'm gonna fall again
This Love

this song is deep.very meaningful to me.it is a strange love.. my heart kept on questioning..

wonderful moments

sometimes, i kept on wondering.why on earth i meet up again with all my old friends.the people i havent herd for ages fr example, sis, may, anyz, kak tasya, omar, oza, fid and many more..but now i know.to fill up the empty slots. these people used to be closed to me and i left them or few of them left me too. God's giving us a second chance to make it up. i really enjoy it sumhow.having them around me. catching up. remembering those old days. just keep us alive. and i hope this frienship last long not like what i've been through. i'd like to thank all of them for coming back into my life and color it up with wonderful moments.i love you guys~

Zara D.

secret love

Swizz beats, ladies and gentlemen (come on, come on, come on)
Ladies and gentlemen (Mariah, Mariah)
Ladies and gentlemen
As we go a little somethin' like this
Hit it!

[Mariah]
Oh baby, oh baby
Come give it to me now, baby
But keep it between us
You and me got a secret love, baby

Oh baby, oh baby
Come give it to me now, baby
But keep it on the hush
You're not mine, got a secret love, baby

It was a summers day
When walking by
She didn't notice as
As you turned and you discreetly winked your eye
And I remember you from back in the day
You were the boy I couldn't breathe without
The one that got away

Oh baby, oh baby
Come give it to me now, baby
But keep it between us
You and me got a secret love, baby (secret love)

Oh baby, oh baby
Come give it to me now, baby
But keep it on the hush
You're not mine, got a secret love, baby (you're not mine)

Oh, now that I found you, I cannot let you go
You know I got my man at home
But baby, I still need you so
And I know you ain't never leaving that girl
But everytime you touch me, baby, it feels so incredible

Oh baby, oh baby
Come give it to me now, baby (oh baby)
But keep it between us
You and me got a secret love, baby (you and me)

Oh baby, oh baby (oh baby)
Come give it to me now, baby (come on and give it to me, boy)
But keep it on the hush
You're not mine, got a secret love, baby

Breakdown

Secret lovers, yeah

You and me, you and me, you and me, baby

Oh baby, oh baby
Come give it to me now, baby
But keep it between us (keep it on the hush)
You and me got a secret love, baby

Oh baby, oh baby
Come give it to me now, baby
But keep it on the hush (but keep it)
You're not mine got a secret love, baby

Baby, baby, baby
Come give it to me, baby
We got a secret love, darling
Keep it between us, baby


when i read it again..i just smiled.but i actually love the song.the lyrics.superb.thats when i noticed what the song is actually all about.hahaha~ whoever are having an affair.u can dedicate this song.hahaha~

can't you see

things aren't going so well over the weekends. i had too many tots. i canceled my meetings with oza.my sis aren't talking to me still and i was having one of "those" days with danial. i am so tired now. sometimes, i just wish i don't have to go through all this.i just want to forget things and go far away from here. guess it won't happen cause i can't run away from these situations. this is part of life.without it,it'll be meaningless. i miss happy moments.that's all i could blog for now. i'll blog soon. i'm just really tired.

me blogging?

bie,
u know i dun blog much unless if i feel like to.to tell u d truth,i dun blog much.myspace was sum certain things i feel like writing.trust me.other than dat,its mostly in my heart.my head.my soul. til d day i die. and u wont be getting it out from me.insyaAllah tidak. =) so basically,u didnt win at all n neither do i.this is coz, i hv diaries everywhere.not just on net.okie dokie?taa~

friends

refer to the subject above..its time for me to move on.ive out grown my "bestfriends". ive never felt so sad for the past couples of week.but now i feel so peaceful without you.i had to.for my own good.as they never appreciates me.now ive open up my eyes who my friends really are.its not easy actually.but i know i can do it.i do miss them.but i have to.i cant live my life with "these" people. they havent seen the light. i understands that but the most sad part is that,the person dat i loved most threw me away just like dat as she never realize dat all ive been trying to do is help her.ive done my part.taken my responsibility as a friend.nothing else matters to me now.why shud i beg for explainations when they never bother to give me.never bother to call n ask.never.this is the end of it and i thank god.for showing me the way.thank you for sending an angel into my life.i dunno wat id do without him.he's a bless.not just him only,thank you for sending me man and fariz too.having dini back.putra n jaja has always been there for me.and others too.you know who u are.thank you so much.as for "besties" of mine.have a great life.drugs wont take you nowhere.party all you can n one day i hope when you grew older,dun regret wat had happened.all the best and i always pray for your happiness. thank you for being my "besties". i shall not forget wat u gave me.beautiful lesson in life.signing off~